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Worked from 7 to 4 today. Then drove down to Muncie to see Meghan McCain speak at Ball State.

Omg, she is probably one of my biggest political crushes right now. EVEN though she's a Republican. I can't help but love her. Especially since she's a "Progressive Republican." So seeing her, and especially tonight, seeing other young Republicans who don't have the bigoted views of their parents was very nice. I'm all for the revitalization of the Republican party b/c I think that if BOTH parties can get to the point where we aren't polar opposites on certain issues, like marriage equality, it'll be better for the country as a whole.

She was a decent speaker, I guess? But she really shined during the Q&A which is so crazy of her to do. Especially since she pisses off both Republicans and Democrats. But she was amazing and kept her cool the entire time. (Though she did drop the f-bomb. lmao)

She wore black, like she always does pretty much. AND BRIGHT RED GLITTERY PUMPS. I'm in love.

I thought about waiting around to say hello to her and maybe get a pic but idk what I would say other than "will you get gay married to me in massachusetts."

Lindsey met up with me for coffee afterward. I always forget how nice it is to get coffee and just talk with friends for a while. But then I had to get back home.

I only got lost a couple times, but my fingers hurt because I was biting them from the stress of trying to find my way through unfamiliar streets.

And I listened to gaga the whole way there and back mostly so now she's #1 on my last.fm. Shit.

I hope my super catholic family gets pissed off because I have the words "gay republican" in my fb status right now.

Okay, I was so lazy I didn't even leave the house today.

I meant to. I really did. I even looked up movie showtimes. But then Precious isn't playing anywhere near me. So I figured, why bother.

Also, no one was home all day, so it was nice to have the peace and quiet for once.

On the bright side, this also means I didn't spend any money! Hooray!


Also, couldn't manage to get Gaga tickets for her Purdue concert. ffff

My sister currently won't let me watch the episode of Glee I have taped because she wants to watch a show on TLC about flower arranging.

Seriously!

That's okay, I guess.  I have to finish this essay anyway.  

Why am I struggling so much on a paper relating to feminism???

Reorganizing f-list, mainly communities I'm watching, but just fyi, if you were looking for a time to defriend me, now would be cool. No hard feelings.

Though also, if there's any cool shit or rad journals you're watching, let me know. I could use some new stuff in my life.

Psych "Kink" Meme Join in, have fun!

Whee.

why did i think i could do nanowrimo this year? oh god oh god there's no way.

ffff

also, i handed out candy to trick or treaters tonight because our street was so lame and like half the houses didn't turn their lights on. so i bought some candy last minute and sat outside in the bitter cold to hand some out to the few kids that came lol.

sleep time then work then maybe writing or maybe feeling like shit and not doing that.

heyo

weird schedules at work killing me.

can't stay up. can't sleep in.  so crazy.

we're already preparing for holidays and i . hate. it.

bleh.

on another note. Brothers & Sisters was sexyyy tonight.  I was scared that Kevin and Scotty were going to break up because they can't have too many couples happy at once on that show. But they made up, so it's okay.

Am I still the only one watching this show???

I'm barely a sophomore right now.  Why am I fantasizing so much about grad school?

I don't even know if I want to keep going after I get the degrees I'm pursuing right now, but I'm already thinking, which school do I want to try and go to?  

idk, I think the idea of going to school, focusing on academic endeavors, NOT having a full time job, and just learning sounds so nice.  Almost romantic even. 

But really, me, a psychologist?  Can you imagine?

Which is more ridiculous?  Me being a grad student or the idea that in a few more years, I could be. . . not living in this town?  Man, I'm a sophomore. 


Anyway, this was on my mind today.  I'm feeling a tad restless.

Did anyone ever find out why Andy Samberg wasn't on SNL this week?  I can't find any news that explains where he was or anything, and I have a tendency to worry.  :(

Okay, I haven't posted thoughts on the rest of the season, but I wanted to comment on a few things.

( LOL SPOILERS AND SHIZ )

Sister: Do they have matching tattoos?  Yes, matching tramp stamps.
Me: Ew, omg. That's gross.
Sister: I mean, we're getting matching tattoos but not tramp stamps. . .
Me: And we're not completely identical, wear the same clothes, sleep in the same bed, and share the same old guy.
Sister: . . . Well, that'd be rad if we did.
Me: That'd be freaking awesome if we did, but we don't.

Aah, so excited for Where the Wild Things are.  I actually asked for the 16th off work so I can go see it at midnight for SURE.  Nothing will stop me.

Coworkers want me to go with them to see it.  I told them that I was definitely going to go see it at midnight and would meet up with them if they went, but if they ended up going the next day, I might go with them a second time.  BUT IF THIS MOVIE TURNS ME INTO A SOBBING WRECK, I DON'T WANT MY COWORKERS TO SEE ME THAT WAY.

Been listening to the soundtrack nonstop too. 

Even though my mother and I frequently bond over television, we have one difference that has put considerable strain on our relationship lately.

She is a Letterman fan. I am a Conan fan. What are we supposed to do, just get along? It's impossible. We're entirely different people.

And I'm not even kidding, we're downright mean about this. Our fights vary between Letterman beating Conan in ratings to Conan not being a womanizing douchebag like Letterman and so on.

I'd like to say this is the weirdest or most dysfunctional part of our relationship, but sadly, I'm sure it isn't.

I wanted to look for some Conan dvds from when he was on Late Night or something because I never watched him back then and she was acting like it would be a tragic mistake for me to do so. She told me to check the library first, even though that probably means I'll be racking up late fees anyway.

My mother and I are watching The Amazing Race. We sometimes kind of skip most of reality shows, but then randomly watch a couple episodes for no reason and try to figure out what's going on.

She kept saying, "Are these guys gay farmers? Are there gay farmers? I think they're gay farmers." Then we find out two minutes later that they're father and son and we're both like "eew." But there's another team that's two gay brothers, so our interest was piqued again.

Also, related to gays~ One of my coworkers and I were discussing politics and social issues and whatnot, and he used the term "straights" to describe heterosexuals. I guess it makes sense to say that because people say "gays" all the time, but I don't think I've ever heard it before. And it was weird for me to hear him say it because he's a chubby geek that loves bowling and football and he told me that he wanted a president to just make gay marriage nationally legal and shove it in all the religious nutjobs faces and I was like 8D LOVE.

I promised myself I would type up my thoughts on Glee this week.

So here.

( Glee 1x04 )

Shit, I've been having weird dreams lately. 

Last night I had a dream that I had a bunch of wolf-dogs and dachshunds but they were all super aggressive and out of control.  So I had to keep finding places in the house (which was definitely not my house but more of a combination of people's homes I know) where I could keep them or store fragile things that they would break.  Seemed like as soon as I found a place where they could be controlled, they'd bust out again and be off breaking or attacking something.  So I ended up talking to someone who I thought could help me, but while we're having a conversation about dachshunds or something, I kept gagging and having to pull a snake or worm out of my mouth before continuing the conversation.  (Ugh, snake dreams are so obviously Freudian.)

This is after I've been haunted by a dream I had a few nights ago.  I dreamed that one of my coworkers, a fat obnoxious jackass, proposed to me just completely randomly, when we haven't dated at all.  I was disgusted by the idea of spending the rest of my life with him, but I accepted his proposal because I was afraid that no one else would ever love me.  Like, this was seriously my concern the entire dream.  He was off being fat and obnoxious and I was dealing with horrible in laws and trying to keep this cheap engagement ring on my finger that just didn't fit.  And I just kept explaining to everyone in my life as they were so confused that he was probably the only person that would ever be attracted to me so I had to marry him.

So crazy. 

TONIGHT I SET THE DVR TO RECORD HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER AND THE BIG BANG THEORY BECAUSE I HAD TO WORK.

BUT THEN MY MOTHER SET IT TO RECORD HOUSE FOR SOME RIDICULOUS REASON AND MY SISTER DIDN'T WANT TO WATCH THOSE WHILE IT WAS RECORDING, SO SHE JUST ERASED THE BIG BANG THEORY. 

I AM IRATE. TELEVISION IS MY WHOLE LIFE RIGHT NOW.

plus CBS hates Hulu.  Where can I watch this online?

(at least How I Met Your Mother was good.)

Also, conversation tonight between my mother, my sister, and I.
Sister: *looking at angel cards* She's gardening.
Me: Angels can garden?
Mother: Angels can do anything~
Me: Can they have anal sex?
Mother: IF THEY WANT TO.

I hate when people around me are sick.  Because I haven't been sick in so long that I don't even understand it anymore.  My sister is like coughing and losing her voice and crap and I'm like, "OMG SHUT UP."

Also, I think it's funny that Snoop Dogg rapped "bitch please" and I seriously thought that was what we women and gays used.  Gosh.

I have mental problems.

I think I'd better take a shower and wash the stank off me.

I love my town.  Went out tonight and was reminded how great people are.  Fuck anyone who can't appreciate this place. 

I feel like I complain a lot about idiots irl that are psychotic wingnuts, but honestly, when I'm around good people it's so easy to just forget about all of them and let it all kind of wash away.  It's so easy to feel alone when your coworkers are complaining about Obama or coming up to you and telling you racist jokes, but when you're out with good people and you meet up with more good people because you're in a place with good people, it's kind of a reminder that there are more good people out there if you just know where to look.

So fuck anyone who update their facebook status with how much they hate the town that raised them and how bored they are.  They're the problem, not this place.